Break ke Baad


“Hey.”

“Yea?”

“It’s me.”

“Hey.. What’s up?”

“I just called to say Goodbye.”

“Umm.. Good.. bye?”

“Yeah. Have a nice life.”

Click.

I wanted it to be short. I wanted it to be colourless.

Like love. Short. colourless. non existent. Break up call is something where you are supposed to be breaking up, alas.

I was burning inside. Never did I feel a stronger need to know what must’ve happened to her with this (call).

Days passed. Time went on. I spent days working and nights singing and shouting along to phil colin’s “I don’t care Anymore”.

When you are in relation with someone for a good time, everything seems to remind you of that ‘Someone’. Indeed time would heal the wound, but every wound before healing is bound to hurt more. Burn more.

And probably leave a mark.

Love is exactly like wound. Because it feels good to scratch around it. Scratch out good ol’ times.

After some more time, comes the time to stop whining about why did this happen. The Reason. Cause and effects. That time brings with it indifference, a sense of betrayal and remnants of untrust. Comes the time to wish the reality wasn’t this hard to mug. Comes the time to wish reality would be predictable. Comes the time for epic realization, that every relation is bound to fade, every affection bound to evaporate. What matters is time when the tides are gonna hit you.

I have come to believe that my sorrows are the only thing that are never going to leave me.

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4 thoughts on “Break ke Baad

  1. It must b d toughest thing fr u bhaiya.. I cant predict d future bt i have full faith in god.. He will equalize everythng and d stakes involved r very high..and what time takes away it give u bck, have faith in your belief.. And hope fr best..

  2. A very short but powerful description of the times you went through. A breakup is always hard, as you said, but according to me, if a relation started mutually by two people is carried on only by one…something’s not right with that relation. What you need to understand is this ever important, ever pervading sense of responsibility linked to every relationship, be it between two boys, a girl and a boy, or between your parents and you. There is a time when the other person is not only linked to you through calls, but becomes an integral part of your life. But, again, if this is happening only uni directionally, than it is not a relationship, it is an assumption. Because “relation” at its very base is just like a “line”, having two ends, joining two hearts, or infact tranforming two lives into one “lifeline”. It is not like a dot which can be placed anywhere and treated like anything.

    Needless to add, the pain for any wounds is experinced by a pain bearer himself, and the person like me who advices something o the happenings would just present his viewpoints w.r.t. his understanding of the situation. Nevertheless, I would suggest you to throw off these shackles of your buried relationship, get above the guilt factor (if you face any) and become that same old “Chirag Deshpande”, whom Kirti asked a question once and got a quick and aggresive answer to shut her mouth up.

    I don’t think my bro is so weak to spoil time moaning over a lost relationship. And one more thing bro, you never know, if a true, caring beloved is waiting for you in future.

    May Master Bless You!!!

    Regards,
    Amey

  3. Its true…when someone faces this kind of situation then its become hard for them to get over from everything 😦

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